> Seven Seconds;

Here's the story of a girl,
Living in the big wide world,
A hidden life, A secret smile,
Hearing voices that scream too loud.

There, she's standing in the crowd,
Watching. Mouthing silently.
You don't know her. You don't see her.
She's a shadow, nothing more.

You don't see her. You see through her.
She disappears, reappears..but only momentarily,
A second, a minute and then she's gone.

All you're left with are wispy images
of something that never truly existed.
She wasn't real anyway.

Name: E R I C A

Stuff about me: Blogspot is giving me a headache but noone uses xanga =X

* Loves: alien food and bug juice

* I love sleeping in and blanking out

* I hate eight legged things and things that might somehow poo on you =)

× Live with no excuses and love with no regrets

× The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

× Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...it's learning to dance in the rain.

× At age 4 success is not peeing in your pants.

× At age 12 success is having friends.

× At age 16 success is having a drivers license.

× At age 20 success is having sex.

×At age 35 success is having money.

×At age 50 success is having money.

× At age 60 success is having sex.

× At age 70 success is having a drivers license.

× At age 75 success is having friends.

×At age 80 success is not peeing in your pants.

× At age 100 success is not facing death.

♥ Dasha
♥ Dora's dead blog -.-
♥ Jin
♥ JJ
♥ Jo
♥ Matt
♥ Monkii
♥ Poon
♥ Ray
♥ Ryen
♥ Sam
♥ Tiff
♥ Viennci

ARCHIVES;

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CREDITS;

Designer
Photobucket.
Blogger.
Blogskins.
Picture 1
Picture 2
Splatter Brushes
Lyrics of the song "Notice Me" by Zetta Bytes

~~Friday, November 27, 2009~~

12:45 AM

so yesterday i went to hornsby and...i suppose, it was the first time that i realized how much i've changed (not physically...sadly i'm still short and round and still have a moon-cake face -.-")
but yeah...as we were walking around, planning our trip, talking about nothing and everything at the same time, it seemed like my interests didn't match theirs. Of course, there had always been the slight differences (lol imagine if we had identical interests T_T) but today, it seemed like our differences, which had once merely been little seeds, have developed into shrubs or even trees.
looking back on myself, i don't particularly like who i've become (or at least, the parts about myself i never knew existed). traits in others which annoy me seem to have become a part of me...iunno...i remember thinking at some stage in my life that i'll never lose my identity, i'll never conform to social conventions and there i was, talking, when it dawned on me that a part of me (regardless of how small it was) had changed and i didn't like it. hated it, even.
lol when did i start caring about what others thought of me? when had i started to hide my thoughts on life for fear of being judged? why is it that society has such a large influence on way we develop and why is it that i never noticed that i'd changed??? perhaps it's coz i have too much time on my hands, too much time to think..to ponder..to reminisce.
ahh...this post is getting way too personal...
back to random stuff-
MY SLEEPING HABITS ARE RETARDED!!!!!
okay so for the first time this week, i stayed at home. i slept at 2 last night...woke up at 9....fell asleep at 1....WOKE UP AT SIX!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *dies* what a waste of a day...and now the bugs in my backyard are bugging me......SHUT UP....owh and my neighbours too....THEY NEVER BLOODY STOP TALKING.......i mean seriously, doesn't your mouth get tired? your throat get sore? and most of all...DON"T U GET SICK OF LISTENING TO EACH OTHER BLABBER ON?!?!?!?! maybe it's the weather...i'm so annoyed at everything atm sighh
what a waste of time.
17days...

Labels: change, hornsby, identity, sleeping pattern

time just keeps ticking...