> Seven Seconds;

Here's the story of a girl,
Living in the big wide world,
A hidden life, A secret smile,
Hearing voices that scream too loud.

There, she's standing in the crowd,
Watching. Mouthing silently.
You don't know her. You don't see her.
She's a shadow, nothing more.

You don't see her. You see through her.
She disappears, reappears..but only momentarily,
A second, a minute and then she's gone.

All you're left with are wispy images
of something that never truly existed.
She wasn't real anyway.

Name: E R I C A

Stuff about me: Blogspot is giving me a headache but noone uses xanga =X

* Loves: alien food and bug juice

* I love sleeping in and blanking out

* I hate eight legged things and things that might somehow poo on you =)

× Live with no excuses and love with no regrets

× The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

× Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...it's learning to dance in the rain.

× At age 4 success is not peeing in your pants.

× At age 12 success is having friends.

× At age 16 success is having a drivers license.

× At age 20 success is having sex.

×At age 35 success is having money.

×At age 50 success is having money.

× At age 60 success is having sex.

× At age 70 success is having a drivers license.

× At age 75 success is having friends.

×At age 80 success is not peeing in your pants.

× At age 100 success is not facing death.

♥ Dasha
♥ Dora's dead blog -.-
♥ Jin
♥ JJ
♥ Jo
♥ Matt
♥ Monkii
♥ Poon
♥ Ray
♥ Ryen
♥ Sam
♥ Tiff
♥ Viennci

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~~Friday, November 27, 2009~~

12:45 AM

so yesterday i went to hornsby and...i suppose, it was the first time that i realized how much i've changed (not physically...sadly i'm still short and round and still have a moon-cake face -.-")
but yeah...as we were walking around, planning our trip, talking about nothing and everything at the same time, it seemed like my interests didn't match theirs. Of course, there had always been the slight differences (lol imagine if we had identical interests T_T) but today, it seemed like our differences, which had once merely been little seeds, have developed into shrubs or even trees.
looking back on myself, i don't particularly like who i've become (or at least, the parts about myself i never knew existed). traits in others which annoy me seem to have become a part of me...iunno...i remember thinking at some stage in my life that i'll never lose my identity, i'll never conform to social conventions and there i was, talking, when it dawned on me that a part of me (regardless of how small it was) had changed and i didn't like it. hated it, even.
lol when did i start caring about what others thought of me? when had i started to hide my thoughts on life for fear of being judged? why is it that society has such a large influence on way we develop and why is it that i never noticed that i'd changed??? perhaps it's coz i have too much time on my hands, too much time to think..to ponder..to reminisce.
ahh...this post is getting way too personal...
back to random stuff-
MY SLEEPING HABITS ARE RETARDED!!!!!
okay so for the first time this week, i stayed at home. i slept at 2 last night...woke up at 9....fell asleep at 1....WOKE UP AT SIX!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *dies* what a waste of a day...and now the bugs in my backyard are bugging me......SHUT UP....owh and my neighbours too....THEY NEVER BLOODY STOP TALKING.......i mean seriously, doesn't your mouth get tired? your throat get sore? and most of all...DON"T U GET SICK OF LISTENING TO EACH OTHER BLABBER ON?!?!?!?! maybe it's the weather...i'm so annoyed at everything atm sighh
what a waste of time.
17days...

Labels: change, hornsby, identity, sleeping pattern

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~~Wednesday, November 25, 2009~~

3:55 AM

my feet are killing me!!!!! argh
watching 'wish to see you again' sighh...the amount of loyalty they have for each other is making me depressed.
omgsh i finally figured out how to put chinese on my comp...NO MORE BOXES!!!!!
on msn, i hate talking to people who always expect you to start convos...

Labels: feet killing me, msn, wish to see you again

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~~Tuesday, November 24, 2009~~

1:39 AM

went to the city today...and and and i went into a church for the first time in my life! (yes...to everyone else, it's just a building..nothing to get excited about but meh who cares) haha went to st mary's cathedral and i was so shocked at how silent everyone was inside but it was kinda depressing how the walls had paintings of Jesus' last days

buuuut anyways....today was kinda funny lol saw brendon's 'before' and 'after' hair (he went kinda bald haha)

oooh think i'm getting a new laptop....now...just have to convince my dad to get the one IIII want...-.-"""" well actually, i don't even know how to judge them ><>

21 days. so excited.

Labels: city, laptop

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~~Monday, November 23, 2009~~

2:05 AM

ok something happened with my background sooo =X i had to change it and then i found this pic...it's pretty! (well...kinda cbb looking through blogspot skins soo chose this random one -.-)

i've just realised....my muscles have been in constant pain during the past week and a half...grrrrr me trying to jog, play bball, swimming, tennis, randomly moving around...has killed my muscles sighh..so unfit.

grrr tutoring english(i.e. EARNING MONEY) is hard...T____T" why can't i have a tree that grows money *sobs*

to do:

*get fit and lose the bloody kilos i gained during hsc *glares*

* EUROPE

* earn money (sighhhhhhhhh)

*learn to swim

*learn tennis/bball? o.O" cept...i'm probs the world's worst student when it comes to anything physical sighhhhh =x

*become a saint (in terms of niceness i mean) and piss everyone off with my saintliness (LOLLLLLLLl totally impossible i know but just felt like adding it in)

Labels: background, money tree

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~~Friday, November 20, 2009~~

12:49 AM

dear blog:

there's a reason that i'm so retarded sometimes. it's coz i hang around with people like........*drumroll*.....JESSAI LOLLLLL

p.s. click on pic to see what i mean xD

was meant to go city/clubbing (ok wasn't really planning on the second part coz i got nothing to wear lollll) today...buuttt yeah my actions are dictated by the weather. we should get pills or something that just eliminate our fears....then i'd take one for spiders, thunderstorms, heights, rollercoasters, insects in general, big bodies of water (e.g. the sea) actually...i don't think i'd ever stop taking pills at this rate...-.-"

up to page 86 of romulus my father......=X i read like two pages at a time, do something else then read another two pages...grrrrrrr still hate aos AND I FINISHED YR 12 GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

p.s sorry =X -.-" ><

Labels: aos, jessai, pills, retarded

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~~Wednesday, November 18, 2009~~

2:17 AM

hi blog

played bball today and watched like 5eps of big bang theory and random two eps of drama which matt said was lame just coz zai zai's in it >.> screw you!!!

went to the beach on monday and now i'm bloody tanned grrrrrr. have still yet to read angela's book....getting there...i've read 9pages (and i've been stuck on those 9 pages for a week now sighh).

got hair cut, watched dorian gray and went shopping at macq on sunday....stupid shoes gave me blisters sighh.

currently: stuck in limbo.

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~~Thursday, November 12, 2009~~

9:57 PM

ok since i'm bored out of my mind and trying to put off reading angela's book -.-" i shall blog lol

watched dead man walking today.....almost made me bawl my eyes out. makes me think that there is seriously something wrong with countries such as the US (where in certain states capital punishment is still allowed...but then again...the US is...o.O (not intended to be defamatory in any way))...just because someone takes someone else's life, does that mean that the State has the right to take THEIR life? do they not realise that in so doing, they are merely instilling the same pain upon the murderer's family? crime rates in those areas aren't dramatically lowered in comparison to other states so does it not tell them that the penalty doesn't act as that much of a deterrent? sighhh....i'll never understand the politics behind the whole thing...i just don't believe in the concept of taking 'an eye for an eye' -it's too cruel. in every 'monster' there is a human being...there is a small beacon of good --- should it be our right to extinguish that flame? does it not render us as cruel as them?

don't get me wrong...of course they deserve punishment but capital punishment is just too....cold and calculating...and what if that person's wrongly convicted??? OWH go watch boston legal- death not be proud!

ah i give up on this topic...gonna make me wanna bawl again -.-" sean penn is sooo good!!! loll

ps. i hate cockroaches and thunderstorms.

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~~Saturday, November 7, 2009~~

1:21 AM

ok jessai...TOLD YOU MY ROOM ISN"T MESSY -.-" well..it's not neat either but it does NOT look like its' been hit by a hurricane aaaand i can't find my things coz go look at the folders!!! i have 9 folders, 3sleeved folders (duno what they're called) and 3magazine holder things filled with yr 12 stuff. ok...THOSE are messy...they're not sorted at all soooo imagine poor me going through them ONE AT A TIME merely to find a critique -.-"

ok pic 1...couldn't resist lol i like my light...think its' pretty -.-' NB it is NOT the lamp...it's the thing BENEATH THE LAMP ==

pic 2- yeah still have that thing of fahrenheit! ty jazzy =) not that you ever read my blog but meh.

pic 3- oh the top one's by benson XD i TOLD you i didn't chuck it away >< poster ="">pic 4- messiest part of my room- my books. all my bookshelves are full and i don't like the downstairs one. =X

okay enough about my room..-.-

pretty quote- "If death is your father, you need not fear that he will ever desert you. If death is your lover, you need not fear that he will ever leave you." every girl's dream eh...to marry death...lol

one of the things on my to do list-

live forever XD

how to achieve this (compiled by jessai and i)

1.. find the fountain of youth

2. tree of life (yeah i know...jessai already called me a bimbo coz it's a shop)

3. make a deal with the devil and sell your soul

4. make a deal with the devil and sell someone else's soul

5. get someone to paint you then say that you want to live forever and watch as the painting ages while you stay the same (picture of dorian gray)

6. become a vampire

7. find the philosopher's stone (it's probs stuck in some mirror anyway -.-" soo jessai proposed that we somehow get a hogwart's letter)

anyway...holidays are getting boring? o.O" i'm tired of sleeping. ==

Labels: devil, immortality, jessai, room

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~~Friday, November 6, 2009~~

3:16 AM

okkk i am exhausteddddd

*If you were a Dementor, I'd become a criminal just to get your kiss.

*If I were to look into the Mirror of Erised, I'd see the two of us together, forever.

*Are you using the Confundus charm or are you just naturally mind blowing?

LOLLL TY spazz for the random hp pick up lines. they're sooo retarded BUT....they amused me for awhile hahaha

anyways.......yay city -.-' became tourists for a day (kinda)...who wants to ride the ferris wheel in darling harbour with me?! =X

mmm too tired to blog.

'what's 'kangaroo' in english????' LOL =)

omg how good does the cupcake look?! it was soooo nice =)

ps. i make a fail afghan lollll -.-" i look like an asian/walking plum but raaaaay haha have fun in mecca!!

Labels: anny, city, cupcakes, ray

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~~Thursday, November 5, 2009~~

1:54 AM

bye bye xanga...hello blogspot. =X

gosh this took AGES to figure out.....-.-"

and Poon -> i do NOT give out daily emo doses REMEMBER.......i DID post up pics of matt's stonedness lol that's not even a word.

anyways.....HSC HSC HSC HSC OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR and i survived. well...barely but i think you've all heard me complain about it at some stage. just hoping for a 90+ ATAR now so yeah....

watched the imaginarium of dr parnassus today! gosh...shouldn't have chosen a postmodern film straight after economics...seriously, regardless of how great and awesome the film was (in my POV), it still gave me a headache coz i had to think. buuuut, dw.....i shall rewatch!! loll

also watched beauty and the geek today! MAKEOVERS!!!!! gosh one of the guys looked like a walking orange...-.-" sighh...i hate getting tanned and there they go, giving him an artificial tan -.-''

but omgsh....corin and emma evidently like each other BUTTTTTT i think emma and jeremy are cuter.

right now- looking forward to

*sleep

*europe

*dorian gray <3>

*surviving the hsc once and for all (i.e. once my marks come...which is stupid coz i'm gonna be on a PLANE T_T" and if it's a craptacular result, i'm going to be emo for the rest of the trip)

things i'm NOT looking forward to-

*swine flu vaccination/other vaccinations

*blood tests

*insects that come out when its' summer (e.g. huntsmans ewww)

*seeing more old ladies stare at matt when he's driving. she was soo rude. BUT dw, she'll be meeting her maker soon...well....maybe....

time just keeps ticking...